Long days . . .

The weekends in which Jill is not feeling well are so long.  Yesterday as an example.  We are up by 7:00 or so.  Holly has spent the night at a friends, so she is not there.  Lauren comes in our bed around 6:30 and we sit there for a while.  Then I make breakfast for everybody.  Then I clean and declutter the kitchen.  Jill sits on the couch not wanting to move much to avoid feeling sick.  Holly comes home around noon and I make lunch for everyone.  Then Jill and I help Holly with a school project.  Then we all do various things.  Around 4 both girls go over to my moms to spend the night.  I work out, then shower.  Jill and I watch the Blindside.  I play on computer.  We read in bed.  Not going anywhere makes the days feel so long.  I cannot imagine what the days feel like to Jill.  Ugh.  At least I am able to clean, walk around, workout, etc.

I asked Jill what I could do for her yesterday and her answer – fast forward time.  She tempered that with saying she never wants to wish away time, but of course part of her wants us to be at the end of this road.  That made us think about the road ahead . . . and all the details yet to unfold this year even on a best case scenario.  That quickly made us realize that living in the now is the way to go . . . one day at a time as we say.

I am not sure why, but I think yesterday was the hardest for me since the first week or two (which were terrible due to the unknown parts).  I feel recharged today, which is good.  Sun and fog this morning got me outside to take some pics (I will post soon) and allowed me to play with a new photo post production tool, which engaged my mind. 

To be honest, on the weekends where Jill is sick – I prefer the weekdays as I get to go to work.  Selfish I know, but Jill is always with someone (or I come home).  Again, I simply cannot imagine what Jill is going through or how slow this has to be moving.