My new mantra is Relentless. Jill's treatment plan and meds are relentless. Our battle against cancer is relentless. Those around us are relentless in their love and support of us. My need to be Jill's rock is relentless. The need for me to pick up the slack around the house and in our personal life is relentless. My need to work efficiently and effectively while at work is relentless (and yes, work is down on my priority list, but still is import to me). My love and support of Holly and Lauren is relentless.
After all, cancer is relentless and thus we have no choice to be relentless.
Now for a normal Greg blog entry:
I have been picking up several tasks that Jill normally owns. But I have scored a #fail on several things too. The recycling did not make it out today. The Advent house did not have anything in its door this morning. But last night and this morning I took care of the kids and got a lot of things done, albeit in a much more crazy manner than Jill normally does. Over the weekend I will do a brain dump to get all things from Jill and get them on my calendar/GTD apps. What night is homework, what night is spelling test, etc.
Don't be so hard on yourself...looking through your honest post brings me to tears. I know now what my own husband must have felt. Greg I remember one night waking up after finally getting comfortable on the couch. I needed to use the rest room. I needed help to air up. I started calling for him quietly,as to not wake our kids. I needed to go so bad that I tried painfully to maneuver my self to get up and then I felt some thing on the floor next to me... He was right up next to the couch asleep. He woke up instantly when he felt my feet. He was so exhausted he didn't hear my voice..to this day it makes me cry as well as feel thankful. You can do it. Jill has my numbers if you or her have any questions or want to vent. Were all here for you
ReplyDeleteThanks for the replay. FWIW, I am not being hard on myself right now. The above was largely meant to be upbeat . . . I got a lot done and missed a few things . . . and am fairly proud.
ReplyDeleteI know this is going to take some time for me to find my groove. This is one of the reasons we welcome support from others.
At least you are trying! Seriously, call me if you need help around the house(cleaning)! I'll do whatever I can to help.
ReplyDeleteNo recycling today???????? Say it isn't so. What will the neighbors think?? :)
ReplyDeleteIn the big scheme.............it's just not all that important. It will be there next week.
You all have lots of prayers,love and help. Just ask when you need some help. (except to take out the recycling..hehe)
Hugggggggggggggs to all.